I'm Just Blah Today

[celtprincess13]

I have to go to a rehearsal dinner tonight for the wedding I'm photographing tomorrow. Not looking forward to it. The bride is. . . particular. Well, and peculiar, for that matter. Anyway, although I've shot probably twenty or so weddings, I always get nervous that there's going to be a problem.

It's going to be so hot tomorrow. It's been running in the high 80's-90's(F) here, with almost 100% humidity. You melt when you walk outside. I'll have to root through my closet tonight for something cool to wear.

I found out today that my ex-boyfriend is contemplating suicide again. I'm totally at a loss on that, as he really doesn't want to be helped. Or, he does, but he doesn't want to hear that alcohol is his problem. To him, unfortunately, the alcohol is the solution. Gah.

Man, what a pity party I'm having for myself today. Sorry to be a downer.

Let's look at the good side of things, eh? I'm getting paid for the photography, which will finance a trip to the Longaberger Factory with my friend Linda. I had a lovely dinner with my friends Linda and Lisa last night (authentic Mexican). Although it's been hot during the day, it has been cool at might for sleeping which is a very nice thing, indeed. And I have Monday off, because it is West Virginia Day. What's that, you say? You mean you don't have YOUR state's birthday off? Tee hee. Teh perks of working for the government, doncha know!

Comments

[wiccarowan.livejournal.com]

Sorry to sound like a cast-iron bitch, but your ex's problems are really his own. I've been in a very similar situation myself and seen it in other people. I know you must feel concerned, but please don't start to feel responsible for him in any way. Depression is an illness which makes people very selfish - they want to be rescued but it's such an enormous burden to put on someone else. If you need to talk about this, email me. I'm on Yahoo chat but can't remember right now what my ID is.

Take care.

[celtprincess13.livejournal.com]

Oh, you're right, I know. And no, you don't sound like a cast iron bitch (as an aside, I love that!). I don't really feel a responsibility, per se, because I know that I've done all I can do. We were together a long time and I tried to help him (at his request) then. Unsuccessfully, as it happens. The alcoholism has been a long-standing issue for him and his family thinks that he should "just quit drinking", as if it would be that easy. And the depression is exacerbated by his consumption. And it just snowballs. And as you say, he does try to put the burden on me, which stems from the whole co-dependancy aspect of our previous relationship.

Anyway, thanks. I would love to chat sometime, I'll have to set up Yahoo. When I do, I'll let you know. Hey, did you get my email (last week, I think) about me being your "stalker", etc?

[wiccarowan.livejournal.com]

Oh yeah "just quit drinking" - it's like "oh shit, yeah, why didn't I think of that?" I used to suffer from depression and my mother kept going "you just need to get out more and pull yourself together". Well if I could do THAT I wouldn't have been depressed, would I? Doh!

[hawaii5063.livejournal.com]

Are there brides that are not particular?!

Your ex-boyfriend is just that, an "ex". You taking on his problems will not help him any. I watched a similar thing with my brother's ex-wife and finally my brother just disengaged. It was best thing for all involved.

As for authentic Mexican food. In West Virgia? Lucky you! Even in So. California it can be hard to find the authentic stuff.